I'm not sure about me, i feel like i don't know myself yet, and in my perspective, everyone is changing...
I've only know a few things though...
I've not changed on my friends policy- I treasure my friends more than material gains.
and the saddest thing of all is- will they return the favour and treasure me?
No, i've got people saying sorry for what they have done wrong and 1 week later...it goes back to what it used to be. No, humans cant be trusted when they say sorry.
We don't know what that word means, we so often take it for granted that when you apologise, you will be forgiven. No, that word has a much more powerful meaning to me.
It means that you will not do it agian on purpose or will try to avoid it and it is a promise you make to the offended! Not some...say-and-forget sort of thing. It symbolises a sign of defeat or truce. And the worse thing of all, When they offend you agian, they say the word agian and agian and agian, and i'm stuck on weather to forgive them? These are the very people for my last post about friends...they kick you when u're down on the ground. They laugh in your face just because you did badly. Oh but when they are in need, i offer my help and the take it, after that they forget it. What would you do?
My dearest of friends betrayed me, backstabbed and shaft his stinking remarks into my face.
My dearest of friends insulted me, critised me for what i did not do framed me for whatever reasons.
My most trusted friend turned his back on me when i needed him.
This is my life, and it breaks my heart just to reflect on it. Its tiring to hate a enemy...what more if you hate your friend?
Lonely and broken,
Stabbed and betrayed,
open and vulnerable,
cursed and down,
desperate and in need,
KaiKein
