So far so good. My life has just carried on with or without any disturbance. Relationships had stayed stagnant all these while.
On the topic of relationships, I suddenly notice that when you start working, you start losing friends and get more enclosed in your own world. That for one is what i do not wish to have. Yes maybe you have some friends at the workplace but how long would they last? Until your contract ends? There are somethings in life that i wish to keep because i treasure them. These things are the basic fundamentals of life itself. Morale values is what i strongly uphold and I do not wish to betray them even in desperate times. Another is friendships, strong lasting friendships. People do change over the years... Their character and personality would change with them to better adapt to their surroundings just so that they can better survive.

Now i'm at home waiting for something to happen, something good, something life changing. I need to get out of this life, boring and mundane as it is... It will be better for me to change my lifestyle and to turn over a fresh leaf.

And I don't know why, it may be my nature to lie down and think about my past, my past mistakes especially. I made many stupid mistakes as you can tell from my previous posts. And now i am more solemn and settled. I begin to realise myself more. Knowing what you can do is the first step to knowing yourself. I realise that i feel people more easily than others. Perhaps i'm just more sensitive to my surroundings? Or is it just because i can read facial expressions better? I do not know.

I have stopped complaining about life and just accepted the way it is. I've reached a conclusion that if it was destined for me to be there then it is, and so be it.

I am trying now to be a good example to the company under me. The boys who will soon become young man must know how to be responsible for their actions and must be ready to face the consequences be it harsh or gentle. Tiring as it is, I will have to see them through their life and make sure that they too set a good example to their younger ones. I belief in servant leadership and i stick to it. I serve to lead people to serve and that way it influences other people to serve and lead at the same time. The best way is t get down and dirty with your men below you. To experience what thy experience and to do what they do so if any situation comes up, you know how to handle it with them in your mind. That is leadership.

KaiKein