It's been long since I last posted. Been more than a year in fact! It's the 20th of July 2012 now. 6 more days to my birthday. Honestly, I don't feel like going through it. Yes i'm thankful for everyday that is given to me but my birthday to me, is just another day. No special significance, no special occasions. My itchy hands decided to try and view your profile again. You've gotten a new look now, cut your hair to a shoulder length but still looking glamorous. It's been hard on me to get by my days without thinking of you. Not one day goes past that you weren't on my mind. And everyday I feel that pang of regret. That stumbling block in my life. Mylene, why? Why do I still feel the same way as when I first met you properly? It's been 7 months since we last contacted and that flame is as strong as ever. But I know that there's no hope for us. Not anymore. Not after my mistake. Now all I want is for you to forgive me. Of my past doings, of my wrongs. Of how I've wronged you of my rash behavior. Sometimes emotions do really harm you. I need to learn to steel my heart and wall my mind. I've caused you hurt and I regret it. I hope you're alright now. You've always been a bright girl and I pray that you continue to be one. You have a bright future ahead. Unlike mine who has future as murky as smoke in water and as unclear as the polluted streams of old Singapore. I pray that you forgive me. I pray that I forgive myself.